I wish it all made more sense. Sometimes I get a glimpse or the tickle of a feeling and I see the big picture, how it all works, how it all fits together...but just as quickly as it came, it's gone again before I can really grasp any of it. I wish I knew what makes people really tick. I wish I knew why we hurt each other, kill each other, steal from each other, lie to each other... I wish I knew why people can't just say to each other "I don't get it. I know YOU don't get it either. Why don't we get a Coke and hang out together, both of us not getting it?" Wouldn't that be better than KNOWING that you don't get it, but ACTING like you DO get it just so that the other person feels like a jackass? I think it would. I think that the more mind games that people play the worse off we all are. Lying doesn't help anything. Running away doesn't help anything. You know what does help? Talking. Honesty. Laughing. Seeing the good in the world instead of the bad. Saying something nice instead of something mean. Seeing the glass as half full instead of half empty.
All of this war and violence just staggers me. I don't understand it on any level. Not a religious level, not a political level, not even on a humanity level. It's just people killing people. There's nothing good about it. Nothing at all. Who the hell cares about Paris fucking Hilton going to jail? She's the least of our problems, people. Granted, I think she's a "stupid spoiled whore" (to quote South Park), but I really couldn't care less about her mental problems in jail. There are children dying all over the world. There are people in our own country who don't have plumbing or electricity in their houses. There are teenagers going to the Middle East to fight a war that NO ONE understands.
I wish it all made more sense. But I worry about what it means if I one day understand...
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